Fear of Love

Once again, my heart is broken
I've always loved you, but that was never spoken
I tried to tell you, but the earth beneath me started quakin'
never mind my stomach achin'

You told me you were never interested
but I think you hesitated
I never gave up, but I'm losing it,
the dream about you ...
there isn't a chance of fulfilling it.

I just want you to know that you are my sunshine
and maybe someday you will sunrise.

Just to make it through the day and not to get hurt
seems about the best I can hope
Like sauce stains splattered on my shirt
there isn't a pattern
everything is uncertain

It's difficult to cope
but I'm not losing hope

Really, SSS loves ZEE.

-Sandile Sandlana

The Nightmare

The dream I had
was not a dream

A dream
I could see myself
climbing trees

Trees that never stopped to grow
Running was unstoppable
Sweat was all over my body
swimming in the deepest ocean

Animals chased me through
the unknown way

Where can I go?
Where can I hide?
What can I do?

I stopped, helpless
After all,
it wasn't a dream
it was a nightmare

It got worse
Trees grew fast
The road had no end
The sweat drip-ling like
tap water

The ocean became deeper
Animals were a different kind of them
I didn't know what to do

I screamed
I called names I didn't know
After all ...
I was just in bed.

-Ciza Sylvane

Why Get Away?

I was told get away,
I grew up knowing get away,
they said be happy to get away,
but I don't understand:
WHY GET AWAY?

I heard get away,
they said get away,
talked the language get away,
maybe they came from a planet named
get away,

Their walk was get away
but I don't understand
WHY GET AWAY?

Her look was get away,
his touch was get away,
their heart was get away,
their minds could tell
get away

Love was not LOVE but was get away,
sounds were no more music
but were get away,
please make me understand:
WHY GET AWAY?

-Ciza Sylvane

If You Knew How Much I Love You

I don't think you know
how much I love you
You could never know
how I feel when I'm around you

how my heart skips a beat
how my mouth gets scratchy
how i feel like I'm about to faint
when i see you smile
that dazzling smile

How I feel sea sick when you
kiss my lips tenderly
but with aggression
that only you could possess

How my ears burn
when you tell me you love me
how my body melts like chocolate on a summer day
when you hug me

How i feel like I'm swimming in an ocean
when you wrap your arms around me and hold me

If you knew
Gosh, if you only knew
You know that I love you
I tell you every day

But I wish you could touch my heart
and feel the heat that rises through it
Then you would have a LITTLE clue
what I feel any time I'm around you

It's like you have this aura
that has enchanted me
as if you spilled a love spell on me
that makes me love you every day
more and more

A potion that makes me feel
like I'm the only one in the world
when you're next to me

If only you knew
And I hope one day you do know

-Ciza Sylvane

The Guy Sobs

Sobbing again because of her
I was certain I was going to get her.

She was definitely my fantasy
but she preferred people more fancy.

I know I would have been good for her
If only she'd given it a chance to be proved
But no!
I was let down and screwed.

Don't ever give up on those you love
and care for
They do break your heart
so watch out and be carefull.

-Sandile Sandlana